Darkling Kissed

Corruption is a sweet thing when you think about it,
Lost in the sins of one's past and future, enticing,
And then one can't find a reason to give a shit,
And all the blame that's truly not worth placing,

Toppled with baggage and complex tribulation,
Makes you wonder who needs the words spoken?
For some dramatic ending or short lived revelation?
When in the end who is it that is truly broken?

Soul n' heart conflict with the mind, an endless game,
When we all know the path we choose to follow.
And even through it all it's an anti-climactic shame,
That some choose to stop short and whine and wallow.

Caressing flesh, sinful lips, sharpened tongues,
All rounded with nothing but dark intentions,
Intoxicated, lost, take it all in with aching lungs,
Just for fleeting and frequent erotic sensations.

Ah, what a waste of time to be ourselves denied,
Unfair, unjust there is so much we will have missed,
So keep to your shallow white roots and do hide,
While I continue on with pride to be Darkling Kissed.

Jambi

Jambi - TooL

Here from the king's mountain view
Here from the wild dream come true
Feast like a sultan I do
On treasures and flesh, never few.

But I, I would wish it all away.
If I thought I'd Lose you just one day.

The devil and his had me down,
in love with the dark side I'd found.
Dabble in all the way down
up to my neck soon to drown.

But you changed that all for me.
Lifted me up, turned me round.
So I...
I...
I...
I...
I would
I would
I would
Wish this all away

Prayed like a martyr dusk to dawn.
Begged like a hooker all night long.
Tempted the devil with my song.
And got what I wanted all along.

But I,
And I would,
If I could,
And I would,
Wish it away,
Wish it away,
Wish it all away,
Wanna wish it all away,
No prize that could hold sway,
Or justify my giving away,
my center.

So if I could I'd wish it all away.
If I thought tomorrow would take you away.
You're my peace of mind, my hope, my center.
I'm just trying to hold on,
One more day.

Damn my eyes...
Damn my eyes...

Damn my eyes if they should compromise
our fulcrum what you need divides me then
I might as well be gone.

Shine on forever.
Shine on benevolent sun.

Shine down upon the broken.
Shine until the two become one.

Shine on forever.
Shine on benevolent sun.

Shine on upon the severed.
Shine until the two become one.

Divided I'm withering away.

Divide and I'm withering away.

Shine on upon the many, light our way
Benevolent sun.

Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
Breathe in union.
So as one survive.
Another day and season.

Silence legion, and save your poison.
Silently just, stay out of my way.
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I can't think of anything to say. I was going to, I just think it's all insignificant now.

I kinda just wanna crawl into myself and hide for a while.

Benevolent Sun? My ass. The thing burns like a bitch.

So here I sit, in The King's Mountain View.

Wondering, shall I divide and wither away?

Should I damn my eyes?

Then I might as well be gone.

I'd wish it all away if I thought I'd loose you just one day.

Will you take my center?

Or shall I wait in Silence, out of your way?

Truth

"Truth" by Seether

If I gave you the truth
Would it keep you alive
Though I'm closer to wrong
I'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside, you're so much more than me

No

No there's nothing you say that can salvage the lie
But I'm trying to keep my intentions disguised
And now I'm deprived of my conscience and something's got to give
Deprived of my conscience
This all belongs to me, yeah

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you

The deception you show is your own parasite
Just a word of advice you can heed if you like
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside you're so much more than me

Yeah

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you

I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down
I'm beaten down

Yeah

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Self explanatory, really.

My Precious Insanity

Clutching close to the edge of insanity,
I find myself lost in the mass humanity,
Making rifts in this so called reality,
Not giving into this new chasity,
As I try to leave a world of false immortality,
But my mind has gone far beyond capacity,
And I can't believe you have the audacity,
Filled with all your clever jackassery,
To push upon me this crazy informality,
Like I'm some sort of horrid atrocity,
That is truly just your own childish jealousy,
I just hope it's not ending in catastrophe...

I Just Don't Get It

I don't get it, I don't get it, I don't get it!

It's painful. Why the fuck is it so painful? It shouldn't hurt. It's never hurt before. It's like I can't breathe, like I'm choking on words I can never say, or bare to say.

I don't get it!

I used to be cruel, I used to be heartless, I used to NOT CARE. What the fuck is going on? I don't understand! It's not fair! There's so much pain involved. Like peices severed from my core. Why the hell do I feel this way?

I don't get it!

There are tears shed for petty reasons, things that don't matter. WHY?! It makes no fucking sense. None at all. What has been done to me? Like I'm reaching for something that I'm almost positive I've lost, as I feel it on the edge of my fingertips.

I don't get it!

Aching, why do I feel this way? Why? I miss the old me. I miss the me that only thought of myself... I miss her.

I don't get it...

Cause I don't miss her... not really... I never liked her... Yet here I am, entangled in something I don't fully understand, longing for familiarity...

... I don't get it...

Is this pain good? Is it normal? I'm not always in pain... no... not always... only sometimes...

I just get upset when I feel it...

But it's stupid... cause I'm happy most of the time...

I'm just scared... I'm insecure... I'm just lonely... I'm fragile...

I don't get it...

But I do know one thing...

You make me happy... and I love you...

I understand how I get upset... just flaws I think you see... and sometimes...

I just don't get it..

Forget-Me-Not

Rebirth, reform, infusion...
Settle forth confusion,
Relax, reload, tactition,
Broken down temptation,
Resound, repeat, admission,
Bitter sweet addiction,
Remind, remember, reaction,
A serious attraction.

Time moves on,
Without a doubt,
I'm just a pawn,
To forget about,
Don't deny,
Don't pretend,
The answer's why,
The question's mend.

Remind, remember, reaction,
A serious attraction.

Reality I have come to accept,
Yet for you I have fought,
I know I am almost always inept,
But please forget-me-not.

Cygnet

Tranquility as wind causes ripples upon the water's surface. Everything's so beautiful in a blanket of ice. Stars reflect on ice covered landscapes, shimmering in hues of blue and white.

Such a breath taking sight, I loose myself in pure and untainted glory.

Wings ruffle and slide behind me, still so new yet old enough to beat. Colour's not right, an ashen mixture that does not seem to fit my surroundings.

Still covered in light fluff, they'll soon change colour once more, but hopefully of right shades of either white or black, for yet I am not sure.

But for now, I tred frozen water, watching the moon far above me as it crosses the night sky. I wish the sun would never come up, so that this moment would last forever, my sanctuary of stars.

For you are with me always, as I reach out my hand for you to grasp. We'll hold this moment for ever, our frozen haven of peace of mind.

So be patient as the soft down of my wings fall, and my true colours shine bright, for this Cygnet will love you forever, after she has turned into a Swan.